Jennifer Lopez fantasizes about a Nicholas Sparks-type romance, and she’s not afraid to admit it. The multi-hyphenate performer opens up to W Magazine about never giving up hope on love, despite some very public relationship failures.

“When it comes to work, I never get tired,” Jennifer says. “But with personal failures, I have thought, This is too hard. When my marriage [to Marc Anthony] ended, it was not easy to find forgiveness. It wasn’t the dream that I had hoped for, and it would have been easier to fan the flames of resentment, disappointment, and anger.”

The two split in 2011 after seven years together. But Jennifer says since Marc is the father of her children, eight-year-old twins Max and Emme, she’s worked hard to make things right. Now, she’s happily dating dancer Casper Smart — her on-and-off beau of almost five years. 

“We got together and broke up and are now together again,” she says. “I still think about getting married and having that long life with someone. I love the movie The Notebook. A dream of mine is to grow old with someone.”

For now, Jennifer’s living out her professional dreams. She’s got a new single out, titled “Ain’t Your Mama,” a Las Vegas residency, and her NBC cop drama Shades of Blue has been picked up for a second season. “I do have trouble saying no,” she admits.

Jennifer also just wrapped the final season of American Idol — a show she says helped changed people’s perceptions of her, though she hasn’t stopped trying to prove herself.

“People may now think I’m ‘nice,’ but they still act surprised when I’m smart,” she says. “…If a man does one thing well, people immediately say he’s a genius. Women have to do something remarkable over and over and over.”